The Feathered Fool

"I am the feathered fool who flew too close to the sun, and I shall plummet to my destiny."

What did she mean when she wrote this line? What led her to believe this? Perhaps an undying love? An obsession gone wrong?

She too, was self-involved and selfish, though she considered herself to be selfless.

All her life she was searching for her lost love. Her soul-mate. Her saviour. Something.

She was helpless. Lost. She only wanted someone for her own self-esteem.

So, she fabricated many. Turned ordinary people into these gods. These perfect mistakes she, herself, created. Misfortunes. And all the while knowing the outcomes of these tricky situations she always managed to find herself getting into. She may as well have intentionally gotten involved with emotionally unavailable people. Dead-end relationships from the very start. One, after another, after another. She knew these things would come in cycles. She was aware of her patterns. Her own habits. Her obsessions.

In knowing what was to come of these relationships, how she would fall so hard, give it all she had, only to be let down once again, she would then give herself the title-

The Feathered Fool

and fly too close to the sun. Eventually she'd get in too deep. So deep that she'd never manage to get out.

And that is when she would

plummet to her destiny.




What a fool. A fool, indeed.